Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Monday, July 27, 2009
I don't think Kittie had ever seen a suitcase before. She really enjoyed playing in my luggage while I packed.
Our first day in the Salt Lake house my older brother flew in. I hadn't seen him in a few years and it was really nice to see him. I got to talk to him a little bit alone while the rest of the family went to the grocery store. My older brother, Danny, and I were the closest growing up. We are the most alike and we are also the closest in age. Danny has been inactive from the church since he graduated from High School and he assured me that he was not critical of what happened with my marriage. Even though my divorce was back at the beginning of March and my relationship with Carlos started shortly after, most of my family doesn't want anything to do with him. It was nice to have at least one family member be supportive of my choice of life style.
That night we went as a family to see Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince. I had already seen it but I was still excited to see it again. I didn't enjoy it as much as I did the first time but it was still a fun family outing. The next day I went to the Hogle Zoo with my parents and my niece and 2 nephews. It was fun. I hadn't been to a zoo since I was in elementary school. We got to see lots of fun animals.
We played lots of games together as a family and on Monday the 20th we celebrated my little brothers 21st birthday. After the birthday dinner I took my mom, grandmother and 2 brothers to meet Carlos (they were the only family members that wanted to meet him). Everything went really well and everyone really liked him.
I went back to work on Tuesday and became very depressed. There was a huge project that had been given to us before I went on vacation but we couldn't get to it before I left. I came back from my trip to see that it hadn't been touched and nothing else had been done either. I started working on the project hoping that my co-worker would help when he came in. I ended up doing the whole project and then some all alone. My co-worker didn't lift a finger. I worked my butt off for 3 days doing EVERYTHING!!! On Thursday I had had it with my job and my co-worker and I stopped working when my shift ended. However, Carlos hadn't left to come get me yet and so I decided to stay on the clock and continue working until he showed up. My co-worker was really pissing me off so I went to the back stockroom when I noticed that Carlos was calling my cell phone. Being angry, depressed and over worked, I answered my phone to talk to him. He tried to calm me down and tell me everything would be okay. The conversation lasted 10 minutes or less and I left to go home when he arrived. On Friday afternoon they called me into the office and gave me my finally warning about my phone call I took the previous day. I was sent home and given 2 paid days off to think of a plan of action to improve at my job. I went home furious and crying cause they obviously don't see all the behind work that I do. I could go on forever about all the politics and injustices that go on at my job but that would take a really long time. Carlos comforted me as best as he could and sent me to go spend time with my family. I drove to Salt Lake and toured the Beehive House with them. It was nice to be with family and it gave me something else to think about.
Saturday I went to a family reunion at my grandparents in Tooele. I didn't want to go originally cause my grandparents made it very clear that Carlos was not welcome in their home and I was offended. The only reason I went was to spend time with my parents before they left. Sunday was my newest nephews baby blessing and that was enjoyable. I spent the entire day with family and they all left to head back to Houston today.
Today was my last paid day off work since my warning. I can either call them and say that I no longer desire to work for the company or write a plan of action to present to them. If I go with the plan of action route they can decide whether or not to keep me. If they keep me I have to be perfect for 6 months or I'm terminated on the spot. I have decided to take my chances and write a plan of action that I will be presenting tomorrow at 1 pm. Hopefully they will be willing to take me back. I don't have another job in line and Carlos can't pay my bills forever. Please keep me in your prayers and wish me luck!
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
I took my little brother, Chaz, to see Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince tonight at the 7:00 showing. Let me just say that it was amazing. There were a lot of funny parts in this movie but there were also a lot of emotional ones too. I actually cried at some of the scenes. I don't know if it is because I have read the books and I know the story or if the music in the back ground was impacting my mood. Probably both...and being on my monthly didn't help the cause either. For anyone who has read the books..I don't think you will be disappointed in this film. As with most movies that are made based on a book...things were taken out and events changed. Even though these things happen with films I think they did a really good job with this one. I can't wait to see the movie again. I just wish I could convince Carlos to go with me!
Enjoy the movie if you plan on seeing it!
Monday, July 13, 2009
Sunday, July 12, 2009
I really like the coloring in this picture but I will probably go for a color more like this...
or even this...
Saturday, July 11, 2009
I was so proud of him. He worked on the tree for a few days and this is how the tree has ended up looking after he trimmed it down.
Isn't it pretty? My man is so talented!!
The night that Carlos started on the tree he told me that the tree was "Our Love Bonsai" and that we both needed to take care of it. If any of you have seen How To Lose A Guy In 10 Days...they have a love fern and it ends up dying because of neglect. Carlos took really good care of our tree until he got his promotion at work. Work became more time consuming and our tree began to die. He made me feel bad cause I wasn't taking the time to water it and give it sun. I didn't want him thinking that that was how I thought about our love so....I started to take care of it. I would put it out on the balcony and water it on my lunch break everyday. Carlos started taking care of it too. Our brown bonsai started to come to life again cause we were both taking care of it. The tree is turning green again and we are beginning to see new life on the dead branches. It is making me really happy to see it doing so well again!!
I think it is very symbolic of our love for each other. Carlos works an average of 7o hours a week and I don't get to see him nearly as much as I would like to. Sometimes I doubt that I our relationship will work. Around the time that the tree was dying was around the time I was debating on whether or not to stay with him. I care so much for him and I can't bare the thought of losing him. I feel as though my life would cease to exist if he were no longer there. He works these long hours for his son and also for me. He wants to make good money to take care of the people that are important in his life. When I came to the conclusion to be patient with him and communicate my feelings, our relationship blossomed again. Our tree turned green when our relationship grew stronger. We are both really working on being the best we can be for each other and therefore we are both working on making our tree stronger. Kinda cheesy but very true.