I'm Moving

I'm moving back to Texas in the next few weeks.

My parents have been trying to get me to move back home since my divorce. I never liked living in Texas when I was growing up. I hated the humidity and the ugly flat earth. I love the mountains here in Utah and I love how my hair doesn't frizz like crazy. My main reason for staying in Utah after the divorce was because my job was here. That and I was in a relationship with a guy that I really liked and now love.

After I lost my job in October, Carlos kept telling me that he could take care of me and that I didn't need to worry about getting a new job. The boy does make good money but he doesn't know how to manage it. At the new year we both sat down and talked about our future. Carlos confessed to me that he was absolutely broke and didn't have enough money to pay his own rent, let alone all my miserable bills. We made the decision that I would move back home to Texas where my parents could help take care of me until I get job.

So far the new year has been really rough on me emotionally. Carlos plans on moving in with his best friend and living rent free for the next few months. I of course am going to Texas. My parents already had tickets to come here at the end of the month so things worked out perfectly in that department. However, today is my last day in my apartment and my last day to be with Kittie! Kittie will be going with Carlos to his friends. I'm really sad about leaving my precious Kittie. She has been the best comfort these last few months. I wouldn't have survived without her company. She loves her daddy so I know she will be okay but I still worry about him remembering to feed her and give her fresh water daily.

I've been packing all week! It hasn't been fun! I've done more crying this week than I have done in my entire life. You would think my parents died with the way I've been acting. I love Carlos so much and I'm hating this whole separation thing. We still plan on being together but our relationship in definitely being put on hold for a bit. I don't know exactly what his plans are with this separation. I know he wants to save and manage his money better so he can take care of me. Not having to pay rent and utilities will really help him.

I'm going to find a job the moment I get settled in back home. Then my goal is to enroll in the community college close to home and hopefully start taking classes in the summer. Neither Carlos nor I knows how long this separation will last. We don't even know if this separation will work. I really don't want to lose Carlos but maybe this is all for the best. We both need this time to better ourselves and our situations. The best place for me right now is school! There isn't a better time for it. Since I'm no longer married and I have no children I should be doing something wise with my time. In a lot of ways I'm really excited about the move but I'm really going to miss my baby and mostly my boyfriend!

I couldn't be more sad than I am this very moment!

Sonicare

My parents got me a Sonicare toothbrush for Christmas and I absolutely love it. My teeth look and feel amazing. My breath is fresher for longer and my gums are probably the healthiest they have ever been. I've never been a huge brush and floss your teeth kinda person. I've been brushing my teeth after every meal and before bed since I was a young girl. I always hated it and so I would brush really fast and hard just to get it over with. Now my gums are receding and I worry about them constantly. Every time I go to the dentist they slap the back of my hand for the poor condition of my gums. I never floss either. Ever since I got a permanent retainer put on my lower teeth, flossing has become a burden. You have to thread the stupid floss into the actual gum and it hurts like H.E.Double Hockey Stick!! My gums bleed profusely every dentist visit! I decided to start taking better care of my teeth and gums. I've started brushing, flossing and rinsing everyday. Boy what a difference I've seen in my dental health. The bleeding is minimal to never. There were a few teeth that still bled a little bit from the flossing but after I started using the Sonicare the bleeding stopped. Have you ever had braces or used teeth whitening treatment? You know that awesomely smooth feeling on your teeth afterward? My teeth feel like that all the time now. I absolutely love it. No more plaque on my teeth and my gums are a healthy color! I recommend getting a Sonicare toothbrush. You will love your teeth and I'm sure your dentist will too! They are totally worth the money in my opinion!

Look A Likes

Look like the same person?

They look the same to me!

Well they aren't the same person!

The first one is Leslie Mann and the second is Sienna Guillory.

Leslie is in some of the following movies: The Cable Guy, Knocked Up, and Funny People.

Sienna is in some of these movies: Resident Evil: Apocalypse, Eragon, and Inkheart.

Earlier this week I was watching a movie that Sienna was in, Silence Becomes You. It was a really weird movie. However, the whole movie I thought she was Leslie. If you've seen any of the movies that Leslie is in, you would know that she has a distinct voice. So I was watching the movie and thinking, "Why does her voice sound so different? This must have been when she was younger or something." During the credits I looked at her name and realized it was a different person. I did searches on them both. Leslie was born in California in 1972 and Sienna was born in England in 1975. Not that far apart in age. I was thinking they must be related but it doesn't look like it according to the bios. Crazy huh? They look so much alike!

Alvin and the Chipmunks

Absolutely nothing is on TV tonight!

While flipping through the channels I noticed that the first Alvin and the Chipmunks was on and so I decided to give it a go. I remember that it didn't have the greatest reviews when it was in the theaters. But with desperation this one got picked. Are those reviewers freakin kidding me? I thought this movie was adorable. Maybe it's because I have a spot in my heart for cute critters but they were cute. I love it when Theodore has his nightmares and asks Dave if he can sleep with him. So cute. How could anyone not love those little faces and squeaky voices? I don't plan on seeing the squeakquel in theaters but I look forward to seeing it when it comes out on DVD. Just thought I would share the cuteness! Even Kittie watched some of the movie with me. She likes to watch movies with animals. She watched Bolt with me on Sunday! My precious baby!

Rechargeable Batteries

Rechargeable batteries are a great investment. My Wii sensor bar broke a few months ago and so I bought a cordless one! I thought this would be a great investment since my other one broke when Carlos tripped over the cord. The only problem with the cordless one is it runs on batteries. 4 at a time! And boy does that thing drain those batteries fast! So my brother bought me 8 rechargeable batteries and a charger that charges 4 at a time. So when the batteries in the sensor bar are dead, I switch them out with the ones that have been charging! When those ones are dead the other ones are fully charged and ready to go! Great investment! I can play all day if I wanted and have no problems! I love my rechargeable batteries!

My New Year's Resolutions

I don't have many but here goes:

• Be enrolled in college by fall semester
• Have a part time job
• Be in better shape physically
• Have a stronger relationship with Carlos
• Make new friends
• Be happy with myself
• Grow my hair out

That's all I can think of now. Maybe I will have more later!

Happy New Year

Happy New Year Everybody!

On New Years Eve I went to see Sherlock Holmes with my brother and sister!

I thought it was good but not as good as I was expecting it to be. See it if you want but don't see it if you have no desire. I actually enjoyed it more after it was over and everyone else was talking about the book and the fact that there might be a sequel. It got me excited. I think my problem with the movie was that Sherlock seemed to be kinda a loser. I grew up imagining that Sherlock was a brilliant genius! He doesn't appear to be all that smart in this movie until the end when he reveals all the clues. Overall it was a good movie but not great.

After the movie, my brother and I came back to my place and played some Mario Kart Online. It was fun for a change since I haven't been able to play for awhile. We played some really good people but we also managed to win a few races as well. My brother left at 11:30 leaving me to welcome the new year alone. At least I had Kittie.

Carlos was helping his best friend move on New Years Eve so I never had the chance to celebrate with the man I love. He did send me a text around the time my brother was leaving and wished me a happy new year and told me that he loved me. I was sad that he didn't wait an extra 30 minutes to wish me a happy new year properly. When midnight came and I never heard from him it got me thinking about our relationship and the events of 2009!

I suddenly became depressed. At the beginning of last year I was debating on whether or not to end my marriage. It was a really hard time for me and my body suffered greatly. I finally came to the conclusion of leaving my husband and thus the divorce process began. I had gone to my sisters the night I left Grant and they agreed to let me stay for as long as I needed. I didn't want to stay long so I told them maybe a month or two tops. It wasn't long until my sister and brother-in-law were almost forcing me out of their home. It was a stressful time since I was going through a divorce and getting everything taken care of and working a full time job. Now they were giving me a time limit to find an apartment. It was extremely fortunate that a co-worker of mine had a room mate who needed to sell her contract. I was able to take over the contract and move into the apartment the exact day that my sister was kicking me out of the house. I was able to room with a friend and the other room mates weren't that bad. It was actually a good situation. It took some time getting used to since I hadn't had to live with an apartment full of girls in almost 5 years! Shortly after my divorce I started dating Carlos. He didn't want his friends knowing about me so I was kept a secret. If his friends decided to come over to his apartment while I was there, he made me leave. If we had made plans to go out, they got canceled the moment a friend needed his attention. I spent a lot of nights crying myself to sleep. Things started to get better, but very slowly.
*Carlos hates it when I talk about our personal life in my blog SO to respect his wishes I won't get too detailed*

About the time our relationship was growing stronger, things started to get really bad at work. I knew that the manager hated me and was just waiting for the day I made a mistake so they could terminate me. I almost got fired in July but I was able to convince them to keep me on. I think my job would have ended there if the Store Manager had had his way. Luckily the manager that was available decided to keep me. Even though I had a job, I hated it and I knew they all had a close eye on me. I felt like I was walking on pins and needles everyday. Not cool! I finally got terminated the end of October.

I spent the majority of the holidays alone and with all the months that I've been dating Carlos, he has only taken me on 3 dates total. I know he can't help it with the hours he works. He would like to take me out more. I just think that after about 10 months of dating, 3 dates is pretty pathetic.

Most of my family haven't come around to accepting Carlos yet. Only my mom and two brothers. The rest of the family hasn't yet. I know my sister and her husband are coming around and hopefully my dad will follow shortly.

In a nutshell, 2009 pretty much sucked! Not much good came of 2009! I hope that 2010 will bring me much happiness! And I hope that I can make more of the time I've been given.