I Went To Church

I've been feeling the need to go back to church for almost a whole year, not quite a full year, but almost! I've been a stubborn person and felt like I could find happiness without the gospel in my life. I've always felt that there are good people in this world that aren't Mormon and I wanted to be one of those people. I also felt that I could find a good guy that wasn't Mormon to settle down with. In truth, there are such people in this world. However, in my almost two years of being divorced, I have yet to meet a guy that fits that description!! I haven't dated many guys since my divorce but the few that I have dated fell to the category of "LOSER" as far as I'm concerned. My last experience with Alex was a rather rude awakening but yet very humbling. I finally came to realize that I'm not going to be blessed with a "nice" guy unless I'm living righteously. So I finally allowed myself to do some research and I found a Singles Branch to attend. I forced myself to attend today and it was "interesting." I went with these two sisters from my home ward and I was grateful to be there with people I kinda knew. It was still a little awkward especially since I haven't been to a Singles Ward since 2004.

The one sister, 30 years of age, talked with me a little about the branch before we got there. She told me that she really liked branch since it had a wide range of age groups. She told me that there are a few young, a few in the mid 20's, and a few more in the older age group of late 20's and early 30's. I found this information to be excellent. I was nervous about attending a singles ward and everyone being younger than 23 and extremely immature. I turn 27 tomorrow and I'm not interested in involving myself with "children!!" She also informed me that this branch doesn't necessarily get caught up in the whole "I want to get married" crap that most singles wards have.

*PAUSE*

I have to admit that there are two reasons why I've decided to attend a singles ward/branch.

1. I want to involve myself with the church again and get on the right side.

2. My goal is to remarry before I'm 30 and a prune.

*PRESS PLAY*

I was a little shocked about how small the branch was....not too shocked mind you because we aren't in Utah. There were probably about 6 guys total in the branch...not of which many enticed me. There was one guy however who was EXTREMELY good looking. He introduced himself to me immediately BUT I recognized him the moment he approached me AS THE BROTHER OF ONE OF THE GUYS I DATED WHEN I WAS RIGHT OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL. Talk about crazy. It took him a minute to figure out who I was but it finally came to him. After he figured out who I was he said, "Wow!! You look, you look...." but he never finished. I'm hoping he was gonna say, "You look amazing" or "You look absolutely beautiful!" Any who, not sure if anything will happen between us because of my history with his brother. In all honesty, I always thought he was cuter than the brother I dated but HE wasn't available. ;-p

The rest of church was just alright. I think I'll have to go a few more times to see how I really feel about the branch. I'm just trying to take baby steps in the right direction. My attending the branch can't hurt me.